Moving On !!!

I can wait
as long as my heart beats,
but life won't,
and all I can do is to move on.

Some nights will pass: sleepless,
and days, meaningless.
Yet, dreams will find their way into life,
and life keeps revealing its own flowing meaning.

A hopeless romantic and an imaginary lover
might become my identity.
Yet I cant lose hope in love,
and romance in my imagination.

I wait for the future to reveal,
with as much patience as does death conceal.
To know with unbounded eagerness;
why life went on and I moved on.

For moving on is not
to take a step ahead, rather
to look back,
and to be able to burst into laughter.

Love that inspires !!

The thought of you makes the dawn lovelier,
fresh as the morning dew you are,
and like the soft rays of sun you do care.

You have made beautiful my prayer.
Be you near or far, forget or remember,
and may you love, hate or ignore
you'll always inspire for sure.

I just wanna say that to you I did surrender.
I miss you in my joy, in my sorrow and in my laughter,
I have lost my past to you and in you my present and future,
I live for the day and I am just grateful today and a person happier.

The beginning !!!

A new sunrise, a new sunset and a beautiful new year,

loads of hope, dreams and unadulterated laughter!!

Dancing to the tune of life once so far,

and singing the song of new found desires !!

Believing in god and his made future

and luckily love does always inspire!!

A promise to myself of a youth that lasts ever

and filling the fragrance of romance as i grow older!!

A lively smile, a beautiful mind and the shining eyes are all that'll matter

and explode with energy and let the despair, disappear

of myself and all those who would share !!

The last mile !!!

A haunting evening turning old
into a chilly night that winter.
Braving all thoughts
the warmth of breaths,the heart tries to restore.

The last mile
of walking together.
The ususual silence
taking me over.

Looking ahead and
taking steps one after another.
To turn my head and find
you besides me i could not dare.

For to walk alone
i had myself to prepare,
and that i had to let go
of you to find my future.

My mind travelled just
opposite to the road that dragged before,
and you could not wait
to find what's in store in future.

Time cracked the poorest joke
that i could think ever,
and god played with my spirit, my heart
leaving me to sing endlessly for ever.

If so, why is that everything
were to get so clear.
Only after you moved out

of my horizon for ever.

.....

one more year

i ll leave behind and
to one more moment

i look forward

the heat of the moment lessened
a thousand emotions alive and most have faded

Few have died

and a few strengthened
and in a while

everything will turn around

one more moment ll be left behind
and to one more year i'll look forward

i m not a hotsage

to years, hours or seconds
yet a tear unshed

as the evening turns dark and cold.

On the edge of the cliff !!!

Once again

I'll make it to the top.
To the top of the cliff

only higher and more steep

The bare chest will be carved

by the stones, rude and rough
I know I fear the heights

but I won't stop

I still remember

with lovely disbelief
and wonder how like an animated bee

I had taken the first step.

May be I was in dreams

yet never touched sleep.
May be I had the parachute

to save my life.

A Gift that you get,

when you feel love yet do laugh
keeping you afloat when you fall

from the edge of dreams shaking your belief.

But, it is not my love of adventure

or any crazy stuff
I just don’t want to take

my parachute off.

For the people, upon me,

who would laugh
As I try to fly ,

running along the busy street of life.

I will wait

on the edge of the cliff
Waiting to meet that lovely cloud

with eyes that never bluff

Seeing them

I'll take off.
And may this time the

life saver never opens up

As I feel as light

as the cloud itself
I'll let God push me

from the edge of my life.

Let me not stop...

Let me not touch

you any more
as you sleep so deep

under the stars

Let me not stare

at you any more
as your closed eyes weave

dreams of colour

Let me not wake

you up at this hour
as the game of hide and seek

between the cloud and the moon is not yet over

Let me not pull up

the covers
as the beautiful feet lay bare

showing strangers the door

Let me not stop loving

you more and more
and a dawn must break

when the clouds will clear

and a smiling you will find me

along the morning star
the most unlikely and the most lovable person

you are next only to a mother

A silent song !!!

why are you silent, so silent like a dead song
and what's this strange silence, untolerably long and just streching along

I can't even hear you breathing
though, that you never wanted is a different thing

or this is the helping hand that I never recongnized all along
and I'll miss everything as you moved to a different world altogether without a warning

may be you should have never wished for me even as a friend in passing
and sincere as always you were, but here I die to get rid of this passion

and you knew, what ever you said is what I sang
may be to relieve me of pain you have gone silent and never gonna come alive again

My lips have run out of words and I am far from rhyming
but silently in this undying silence I find myself happily singing.

Routine rumblings !!

i m at ease, i m at peace
but, poor have i become having paid the price

no more do I board the wrong bus
no more do i commit the irregular blunders

but still i couldn't cross the vaccum, the space
is it the sadist addiction,or the characteristics of mutated genes

i m not the rays of light
that could cross the darkness in a night

but have become the screams so deep and so silent
enshrouded by the vast vaccuum and not finding the way out.

The lonely traveller, disgruntled just does yell
you silly, stupid just go to hell

But, if you ever set out at all, give me a call
I ll be on my way as well.

Envy !!!

I envy the sea
that treasures in his heart your sand impressions.

I envy the blood
that returns to your heart every few seconds.

I envy the tears
that runs across your cheeks sans care, sans emotions.

I envy the pains
that dates you early mornings,evenings and dark nights.

I envy my lost,killed self
whenever i am not dead and dont feel like this.

Dont hate me ever !!

dont hate me ever
for i will never return ur favour

and if this is what you are worried over
know that this will end never

And u get happy seeing the wall of indifference getting taller and taller
i feel happy with the depth of my reservoir getting deeper and deeper.

as they say about the wind and the fire
the jungle in fire,the little flame of the candle,the wind and it's ire

The little flame that loves to sleep with the caress of air
but in woods makes love to the wild wind till with shame and with ash the eyes of soil, get covered.

Rain ..

warmth of love
in my heart

drops of rain
to tease and excite

A friend to feel belonged
however remote

What more from life
i shall want

And live life
moment to moment !!

A little treasure !!

I look into the mirror
eyes bulging and with an attentive ear

i dont believe these rhymes, i ever spoke or even heard
as leaving the scent of love the flower disappeared

in the war to look up and gaze the stars
to fly like a bird and be free from tears

i hurt myself and you beyond repair
no questions and i know all the answers

may it never be a compulsion but a pleasure
to accept things as they are and as they were

i know I have changed
and could not keep ur word

i can still see u standing on the lines of a pink paper
and with glee yelling, "don't change ever"

i am truely sad dear
but i have changed , i had to, for
i could not bear anymore
and this will be the lonely treasure for ever.

Blood red !!

Dont ever feel pity
keep stabbing and just do ur duty

for if you ever show sympathy
and touch the bleeding wounds with allopathy

In pain i ll cry
and may make ur face bloody as u would try

Dont ever feel pity
keep stabbing and just do ur duty

I m addicted to it and i shall not lie
to hold all pains,all complaints close to my heart i wont shy

never let a moment pass by
for if u ever stop all the blood would gush by and in a moment i ll die.

Anonymous Friends ???

An anonymous,wish i could become
and say everything that to my mind, would come

may be to hide is something i could not learn
may be i thought the best way to do so is to stand in the open

even i hate u seeing me drowning
for i tried to come out once and found myself in the flame burning

even i hate u seeing me bleeding for nothing
that makes me the biggest fool i have seen in the making

and i became silent and the little treasure i started selling
to my misfortune the more i tried the more it was growing

selling my emotions was never in my liking
but i thought i would be ashamed and would stop rhyming

and at times people loved what i sold
for we all love the rocket going up but what bout the fire that propelled.

Finally my silence broke one evening
and mesmerised fingers just kept typing

may be to seek an answer as it is my turn
to a question u had asked and i tried in vain

i still do remember
a question that then did not matter

that i tried so hard to answer
and finally told we are so far yet so near

and to answer i can go on for ever
when u asked "what kind of friends we are"?

Having lost things that did matter
and being lost in things that would never

it's my turn to seek the answer
Now please lie and say we are still friends of somekind, anonymous or whatever.

The last word can never be said !!!

I am not a mere reflection
of someone's love, hate or indifferent emotion
for i m the ocean that reflects everything!!!

I am not a mere reflection
of my own little dream,even if it's the sweetest one i have seen
for the tide of joys fade away as the full moon night passes on!!!

I am not a mere reflection
of my own broken dreams and all the pains
for i just need to sleep well and another dream'll be just queing!!!

I am not a mere reflection
of your presence that causes a smile for no apparent reason
for the lightning lasts just a moment and cant be snapped even!!!

I am not a mere reflection
of everything i m tyring to say even
for the attempt to say the last word is the biggest illusion!!!

And still we keep fooling ourselves again and again.
May be that's why you cant be in love and be a wise (wo)man!!!

Eternally complete !!!

People say that you have found venus
and all the love and happiness

When did i say i m being jealous
or that i wanted to cross the fence

Why do u listen to a fallen man's words
May be you have never fallen and not know of the helplessness

To move on i know a hundred ways
but still at the crossroads the shadow of my joy stands

It's the same whether you are in your teens or sixties
And you thought i did all these by choice

with hope and some belief in your grace
waiting for the old you and a glance to paas me by chance

when all around me become breathing corpse
i shed my body and stand at the door of your house in dark nights.

Missing you !!!

There were no kisses
or promises
and there were no silent promises of kisses

but what shall i do
i still miss you.

There were no rains
and never held arms
and there were no silent promises of walking in rains

but what shall i do
i just miss you.

There was no fire
there was no romance in the air
and there were no silent promises of looking into eyes of each other

but what shall i do
i just miss you.

There was no past nor there is any future
and we are not going anywhere
and there are no silent promises of dreams together

but what shall i do
i just miss you.

Keeping you alive !!!

where shall i keep you
and how shall i keep you alive
till the years ahead of me I do live

There is a house
i stay some day and some night
but that is not mine and that is in debt

There are memories
i call your old hut
but with time it will be covered with dust

and there is this little heart
I searched for a little space but
it's filled with all the shared moments

Where shall i keep you and how shall i keep you alive
may my fate never let me meet, so let me find
you in my words sour and sweet

A favour !!!

dont say a word kind and warm
it's been long i have died and i dont have any charm

dont say a word kind and warm
a lot insensitive to words i have become

dont say a word kind and warm
for that might make you think that i do still dream

dont say a word kind and warm
when i am alone it makes me cry and scream

dont say a word kind and warm
i ll hate myself for at the cost of leftover innocence i gave way to cynicism

dont say a word kind and warm
for i cant afford anymore to lose whatever liitle strenght if you change your opinion

dont say a word kind and warm
if you still want to do something just return my old time sans any label and sans any dream